Back to highest weight.

As the title says..I am back up to my highest weight of 109kg.
Really annoyed with myself that I can’t get this under control and haven’t been super inspired to post about me doing crap with it. lol.

The benefits system/triage work program are really getting me down.
Its the constant fear of getting sanctioned if someone has the opinion that you are not trying enough.
Its the getting messed about by triage with appointments – they gave me a set of appointments, the first of which was Thursday (4th) just past. I attended.  They gave me another whole set of appointments despite several still being on the 1st printout.  I came home from that.  On this new sheet – the first next appointment was for the 12th of September.  I came home, letter through my door from triage (dated 3rd) saying I have an appointment on the 8th.  I had no clue if this was still “active” as the new list I had received at my appointment on the 4th didn’t mention it.  So I had to go down there yesterday to try get some sense made of it.  THEY HAD NO CLUE.  So now basically they have told me to attend on the 8th and they will sort it out then. Urghhhhhhh!

One happy thing since I last posted though…

Lacy&Ella
Two little cuties!
They are 11 weeks old tomorrow, I adopted them from the cats protection league on Tuesday, the last 2 from their litter. The kids have named them Lacy and Ella. :)

They have been worrying me a little, both have had upset tummies since we got them.  First Lacy, she was sick a couple times on the 1st day.  But Wed, Thurs and Fri they have both been sick and had runny bums.  I think it might be due to being adopted and possibly the change in food or eating too fast (I don’t know brand what they got at CPL) Right now as I type this, they haven’t been sick for around 14hrs but I am keeping close eye on them. They are so cute :D

Kids are back to school :)

10603376_10153090430081091_4413331696396369438_nPut the flags out! LOL

They were looking forward to going back to school anyways, I think they get bored near the end of the holidays.

Now they are back I am hoping I can get back into some kind of proper healthy routine, as I have really slipped over the holidays… haven’t even worn my fitbit some days let alone weighed myself or been careful with my food.

Going to give the 5:2 eating program a decent go, I tried it out before the holidays and it wasn’t too bad… and apparently it gets easier after a few weeks of sticking to it.  :)

Triage are still being a pain in my butt, they messed up a few appointment times – sent out 1 for the day before I received the letter. lol.  I know I like sci-fi, but that doesn’t mean I can time travel. I spoke to them on the Monday (last week, the letter arrived on saturday 9th, appointment was for 8th) and they already knew about the issue – some letter blip, and they say everything is ok.  I also noted it on my job log and mentioned it to the job centre lady who saw me when I went to sign on last week.

DD1 goes away on a school trip in a few weeks time, need to get a lot of the equipment she needs for it, not quite sure how I am going to afford it yet – ex was supposed to pay half of the trip cost but didn’t end up paying anything towards it at all, so I had to find the extra money for that – both kids birthdays were in the holidays and then of course had to get new coats and school uniforms etc for going back to school.  It should be fine, if I budget very carefully for the food spending, but still its frustrating when I was supposed to get help from their dad.

Week after she gets back we should (fingers crossed) be getting a kitten!
A friend of my mums has a litter of kittens to find homes for – there were 4 in total I think.  There were 2 left when my mum told me about them, she is having the female kitten and we are having the last one, a little boy kitty – I haven’t seen him yet, and he is only about 3 weeks old right now but apparently he is mostly black with some white.  We are thinking of calling him Domino (I was trying for Sherlock, but kids were not fans) Something to look forward to. (yes I know getting a kitten is going to cost money, but I feel its good for the girls to have a pet, as I did when I was young.  As long as I am careful with the budget for groceries we should be fine…not rich of couse, but we will manage.  I don’t smoke, drink or go out socialising so in a way the internet, crochet and this kitten will be my “vices” – lol)

 

Scotland indyref…

Sooo, its getting closer to the big day where Scotland gets its say on independence.

I live in Scotland, and have done for 27 years now (since I was 7 years old) so I will get a vote in this historic decision.

Its an exciting time, but also a huge responsibility.  I want to get it right!

I have been watching a lot of youtube videos and reading some info to try and get as much information as possible to make the best decision I can.

I have never really been into politics or economics in the past but I really want to do my best and get as much information as I possibly can so that I can make the right decision!

so, if anyone reading this has a good source of information regarding this, I would be very grateful if you could share with me in my comments!
Thanks all :D

Oh dear! Fitbit trainer, take 2, week 8.

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Week 8 is a fail!
Finding it really tough to get out for decent walks of any kind with the kids being off school.
I am even doing all my shopping for the week on 1 day each week because they moan and complain so much about having to go to town!
I might have to just go jog around the garden or up and down the stairs at this rate!

However, when I stepped on my scales I got a nice surprise -

27/07/14 – 106.9kg (-1.1kg this week)
Not really sure how… as I have not made great food choices in the last couple of weeks either…but I am not going to complain about it, I will take any loss I can get!

Fitbit trainer, take 2, weeks 6&7

 

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So, its been 2 weeks since I posted my fitbit stats, I haven’t been doing great with it to be honest.
Its so hard to get out for a decent walk when my kids complain about even going to the grocery store (a 7 min walk!!)
Week 6 was on target…just.
I have been pretty stressed out with Triage (the work program)
For some reason, as soon as the school holidays hit, they are on my back more times per week than during term time.  Seems like its done on purpose to me!!!
Week 6 (Sun 6th to Sat 12th) they phoned me and expected me to go down that day to fill in a paper application form and personality quiz thing for a temporary 16wk position (to cover sickness) – then if I passed the personality section they expected me to go down the next morning to fill in the SAME INFORMATION onto the online application.  Double the work!!
I went down to do the paper form, but in order to do so I had to get my ex to watch the kids (they won’t let me take them with me because of the “type of customer” they deal with) He wasn’t happy about it, he had other plans. But he did it.
When she phoned to tell me I had passed the personality quiz and could I come to do the computer version (the next day) I told her – Nope, not possible.  There is no one available to take my kids today (my parents, brother and my ex all work, I have no real friends just “people I know”) I said I could go down, collect the form and transfer the information at home using my own computer, but that didn’t seem to be acceptable.  She said that she would enter my information for me since it was just copying what I had already written on the paper form.  I said that would be great and thanked her.  She said I should hear from them “early next week” about an interview (which would have meant Mon 14th – Wed 16th ish)  Its now Sun 20th – Not heard back about it at all.  Yet more triage fun in week 7….

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Week 7, As you can see in the charts above, week 7 was a fail!
I didn’t even do any of my fasts this week – didn’t even try.
I was expecting to hear about an interview – and I knew that I didn’t want to attend an interview during a fast….plus its that TTOM, and I was just plain HUNGRY. lol.
Tuesday, I had to sign on, thats always fun…NOT.
Don’t know why I bother to do my searches, logs etc… they don’t bother to check.
All the job points have been removed from my job centre, replaced with 2 computers. You can’t just nip on and look though – you have to speak to one of the security guards, who then has to go get a special folder and note down details from you – one of which was NI number.  Just glad I have a computer of my own.
Went grocery shopping after – daughters were with me.  We had the £10 voucher from collecting vouchers the previous 2 weeks (Morrisons) so that was a little help.  Ended up getting some school stuff for the girls – a dress each (£5 each), pack of 2 polo shirts each (£3 per pack) and a pack of undies each (think they were £2.50?) Still got a bit to get – shoes, coats, new bags because they have holes in their current ones… probably some more that I am forgetting at the moment.

Wednesday – Triage phoned (urgh) – said I had to go down that afternoon to fill in a vetting form for a cleaners job with the police.  Also I had to be available to go to Dundee (city 20 or so miles away) the next day to talk to someone there about it.

I was confused, I had not applied for any cleaning positions with the police.

I know she sometimes puts me forward for jobs though, so I agreed to go down that afternoon.

My mum came to look after the kids, I was stressed – always am before signing on or triage appointments, and she drove me down there to the centre.  Dropped me off and drove away, I went in.
Soon as I went in I asked for more information about the position as I couldn’t remember it, she just kept saying “remember I put you forward for it” Umm…no thats why I am asking about it…..
She then proceeds to say “You can get to the police station by 6am right?”
Yup folks, 6am start….how am I supposed to do that with 2 children as a single parent???
I told her no, not possible and I would never have agreed to be put forward for a position that involved those hours (I have agreed restricted availability on my jobseeker agreement due to having children under 12) She “swears” she told me the hours on the phone (she didn’t) – if she had I would have told her that wasn’t possible on the phone and not inconvenienced my mum!!!
So, the triage visit that I had worried myself about all day took 2 minutes. My mum wasn’t happy.

Friday – had to attend triage again (the “normal” arranged weekly appointment) for a job search.  An hour sitting on a really slow computer doing exactly what I do from home every day.  So productive. My ex had the kids Thursday night so still had them at the time of my appointment so at least I didn’t have to worry about finding someone to have them this time.

Wow, this is a long post!
Oh dear, I do ramble on… congratulations and thank you if you have bothered to read this far! lol.

Almost done…
Weigh in’s
Wk6 13/07/14 – 107.6kg (- 0.3kg this week)
Wk7 20/07/14 – 108.0kg (+0.4kg this week)

Really need to get back into the 5:2 eating plan.  I really do think it helps me and many people on the facebook group have had great success with it.  I think it is something that can be done long term – maybe just as 6:1 once all the weight is lost though!

DD2 is now 9!

DD2 – my youngest little princess turned 9!

Happy Birthday Sweetheart!

We didn’t do much, it was raining so we had a picnic of sorts indoors….

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Cake ofc…

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and she decided she wanted her ear’s pierced… so we did that too (on Thurs 17th July)
“Best present eva!” apparently. :)

(lol, just noticed she is actually wearing the same dress on the 17th to get her ears done as she wore on her birthday on the 8th! That wasn’t planned xD)

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(Was late posting about this, post actually written on 20th July but re-dated to her actual birthday just for post neatness xD)

Giving the 5:2 eating plan a go – first week done.

2 “fast” days a week – keep calories to 500 since I am female.

First fast day was last Monday, after reading through the book on Sunday.
Didn’t go too badly – I did feel pretty hungry and I found myself thinking about food a lot. I got through about 2.5litres of plain water as well as a couple of cups of tea (not too many as I had to count the sugar and milk in my calories, lol) Snacked on carrot sticks, had an omelette made with 1 whole egg & 2 egg whites served with broccoli, and just had some boiled potato with paprika on it in the evening – sounds weird I know, but its nice…and it fitted in to the calories quite well :)
Made it through the day with a total of 513 calories (according to the fitbit food database)

Second fast day was Thursday… and it was worse!  I think it was my own fault though.  I didn’t consume anywhere near the same amount of water as I had on the first day.  I had also bought some diet coke – thinking the zero calorie fizz would fill me up.  I don’t think that worked to be honest, if anything the sweet ( but slightly weird) taste (even though its sweeteners, not sugar) made me feel more hungry. Not a huge fan of sweeteners anyway, and I won’t be drinking the rest of the bottle.

Food wise was perhaps a little better today though – We went shopping on Tuesday and I had made sure to buy some things that would be suitable for “fast” days.
I had some wafer thin ham with some cottage cheese, carrot sticks, cucumber & fresh apricots around lunch time and and omelette made with 1 whole egg, 2 egg whites, onion and some cottage cheese mixed in served with some lettuce and a small portion of boiled potato. Total for this fast day was 507 calories.

The plan says that if you restrict your calories for these 2 days then you can eat normally for the other 5 days and even have some treats. Apparently its really difficult to over consume enough to make up for the severe calorie restriction on those 2 fast days.

The book (and the horizon documentary) says that there are other health benefits to fasting in this way.  Something about a kind of re-boot to your immune system, and encouraging your body to repair.

I can’t really tell much from just 1 week on the plan, but I do seem to be less hungry on non-fast days. Although I didn’t really track calories on the non-fast days too well for the majority of the week (the plan says you don’t have to calorie count on non-fast days, just eat to satiety, not overstuffed etc)

I didn’t lose a huge amount of weight at the end of my first week only down 0.2kg from 108.1kg to 107.9kg.  Bit disappointing, but I didn’t do much exercise (didn’t make target for activity for week 5 of fitbit trainer) I also didn’t drink much water on any day except the first fast on Monday and perhaps the biggest thing – I forgot to take my thyroid medication for almost half of the week (missed 3 days!!)  Gonna keep trying though, only fail if I give up and all that! :D

Today (7th July) was my 1st fast of week 2 trying this eating plan.  It has been by far the worst of the 3.  I went over the 500 calories by a huge amount – almost double in fact… at 922.  Oh dear!  I have been so hungry today.  Its coming up to the TOTM, perhaps that is why.  I didn’t drink much water in the earlier part of the day – I had to wait in for a parcel to arrive… normally I would just miss it and go get it from the office the following day, but this parcel was for my daughter’s birthday… and it is tomorrow!!! So I had to wait for it.  It came around 12noon so I didn’t have much to drink all morning.  As soon as it came we had to go food shopping – so not fun when you are HUNGRY. lol!!
So not great, BUT 922 is a lot less that “normal day” eating and fitbit has my TDEE sitting around 2400 for today so its still a decent deficit I think. Just glad I am not trying to maintain this level of deficit on an everyday basis, so looking forward to my bed this evening!

Fitbit trainer, take 2, weeks 4 & 5.

Week 4 went ok, couple of “yellow bar” days – but still made target overall.  Look how close that Wednesday bar is!! lol.

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Week 5, hmm not so great.
This was last week – otherwise known as the first week of the summer holidays.
Monday was my first “fast day” on this 5:2 eating plan I am trying out – it was hard, but I had a ton of water and managed it.
Tuesday, I had to sign on, then we went grocery shopping, so quite a bit of walking there. Not a huge fan of taking kids shopping though, its very stressful!
Thursday was my 2nd “fast day” – We didn’t go out anywhere, but yet I made my target just by doing housework and gardening. :)
Some green bars sneaking in, not proud of that… and I failed to meet the target for the week overall – my first yellow bar in the plan overview! Nooooooooo!

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29/06/14 – 108.1kg (Oh dear!)
06/07/14 – 107.9kg

Had a bit of a problem with my scales – so not entirely sure how accurate they have been (although can we ever be really sure that home scales are accurate?)

This happened:

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Its my 1st fast day of week 6 today – and I am so tired (just want to go to bed) that I sent DD1 up stairs with my phone to take this picture. #ohtheshame #lazybum

So, I treated myself to a new set!

These are cool, they can store up to 8 different family members weights.  They also have the option to hide the actual weight and just report the change inbetween weigh ins if ya don’t want to be remind of the actual weight.  It can also report the % change which is nice – since I seriously suck at maths. :D